
As previously reported by BV Buzz, 'American Idol' winner Fantasia Barrino was hospitalized on Aug. 10, due to an overdose of aspirin and a sleep aid. Contrary to various sources questioning whether there was foul play, it's now being reported that the 26-year-old singer's overdose was intentional.
In an excerpt from her forthcoming VH1 'Behind the Music' interview, the eight-time Grammy Award nominee revealed that the scrutiny surrounding her pending sex tape scandal had forced her into exile and ultimately toward suicide.
"I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out," Barrino admitted during the interview, which premieres Aug. 24 at 9 p.m. ET/PT. "At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive]."
See clip of Fantasia Barrino's 'Behind The Music' below.
"I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle," the 'Fantasia for Real' actress described of the night she overdosed. "I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."
Miraculously, the singer's near-fatal experience has given her enough strength and "motivation" to continue her career and promote her latest album, 'Back to Me,' which, coincidentally, is being released the same day as the premiere of her VH1 special.

Following her release from a North Carolina hospital on Aug. 12, Barrino released a statement through her record label, J Records, thanking fans for their prayers and support.
"I can't thank my fans enough for their prayers and support during such a challenging time," adding, "It has given me the motivation to get back to work. ...I put a lot of blood, sweat and tears into this album, and I pray that everyone enjoys it as much as I do."
Unfortunately, the cause of all of Barrino's recent self-loathing stems from being caught in the middle of a divorce between Antwaun and Paula Cook. On Aug. 4, the missus filed for divorce, detailing in court documents that the singer engaged in an affair with her husband and even "recorded" several of their sexual encounters.
While 'The Color Purple' musical star maintains her innocence, saying she believed Cook was separated from his wife, she admitted to being disheartened by the men who have been involved in her life.

"I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again --dealing with my family, my father, dealing with men and their [expletive]. I was tired," she disclosed to the VH1 special. "My head was hurting me. I was over it."
As for how much of a negative impact the whirlwind events may have on her future career, some media pundits feel that infidelity may have a major impact on her album sales.
"A significant portion of her consumer base is African American women, who don't take lightly the idea of someone breaking up another African American woman's marriage," said BlackVoices' columnist, Jawn Murray, who recently appeared on 'The Joy Behar Show' and 'Nancy Grace' to discuss the issue. "Fantasia has to convince the people she was the one misled by Antwaun Cook, because if they believe she purposely attempted to steal a married man, it could definitely be curtains for her career." The disappointing performance of Alicia Keys' last album is said to be due to her alleged role in ending producer Swizz Beatz marriage.
Terrie Williams, a public relations expert who has worked with Eddie Murphy, Janet Jackson, Russell Simmons and Mo'Nique, believes that Fantasia's visibility on the reality show has invited a heightened level of scrutiny within her personal life. Her suicide attempt is likely a clear signal that more serious issues than record sales plague the singer.
"Many in our community wear the mask of wellness while suffering from deep depression bought about life's ups and downs, whether losing a lover, a job, a home or in whatever we have placed value upon and invested in emotionally," said Williams, author of 'Black Pain: It Just Looks Like We're Not Hurting.'
"A suicide attempt is an obvious cry for help for a young woman under many pressures. The great thing is that there are smart, trained people that can help, and the people who love and care for her should make sure that happens. We must share ourselves...healing starts with us."



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By: Cookie on 8/23/2010 8:08PM
Don't let all of this get you down. Some men lie and cheat. You are not the first and definitely not the last one that will be misled. Take it all in stride and Pray!!!
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By: Meka on 8/23/2010 9:31PM
I just would like to add to the whole situation of life's challenges with relationships of family, friends, lover(s), the enemy himself, and GOD.
There's several who has been through something s in life that address all five compositions. And we know which one hits us the hardest and the least. Myself have been through through all that's listed to relate to the issue upon distress. The reason being, "as long as the enemy feels that he can take play in your life to what he feels is good foolish" He will, and he'll continue to until you gain the inter-strenght to get pass his games and envious ideals. Tasia is strong one way or another, that's why she's faced so much in life to relate to the situations to get a message out to others whose not along. But of it all, she must stand through it all and take everything as a lesson taught a lesson learn to continue which motivating others who are weak in many others. Like god say in his word, "Let the weak say that I am strong" She is strong and can get through what ever the enemy continue to throuhg at her" But with all do respect, continuing to seek god and direction, and everyone that's a true beliver in god to keep her lifted.... All is well and god got her back regardless of the situation that she's faced and yet to face. Because it ain't over until god says it's over. Stay strong Taria and let god lead and direct your path, stay and belive that all this work together for the god of those who love god.... Be bless, and I have mad love for your sister... Forget the haters because they can't do nothing with ya... lol
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By: Outlaw Josey Wales on 8/23/2010 9:29PM
Not all women are honest either. Sounds more like a pity trip and attempt to boost sales of her new album. How convenient a new album is coming out now.
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By: barbara on 8/23/2010 9:07PM
killing herself by aspirin, SUREEEEE she's got a new show this is all to get her name in the news
come on people
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By: Kg on 8/23/2010 10:12PM
Yeah, and women lie, too. Just as bad as the men.
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By: Pat on 8/23/2010 8:10PM
After watching Fantasia's reality show it's no wonder she's sucumbed to the pressures of being a celebrity and her "blood sucking" family..NAMELY HER BROTHER TEENY. What a no talent hack and free-loader he is. Tasia should kick him to the curb.
She probably is my favorite Idol winner...very talented and if she will start thinking about herslf and her daughter and let her family members fend for herself she should have a long career.
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By: soread on 8/23/2010 8:31PM
Favorite You must be tone deaf!! or stupid maybe all and more she cant sing and you nee to get out more and GET A LIFE!!!!!
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By: Jackie on 8/23/2010 8:53PM
Yep her career will be long.....LONG GONE!!!
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By: lisa on 8/23/2010 11:49PM
I agree with you on that one sometimes family is the worse when they're suppose to be helping you they just try to bring you down with them. She just needs to take her child and get away from everything and everybody for na mlittle while
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