
As previously reported by BV Buzz, 'American Idol' winner Fantasia Barrino was hospitalized on Aug. 10, due to an overdose of aspirin and a sleep aid. Contrary to various sources questioning whether there was foul play, it's now being reported that the 26-year-old singer's overdose was intentional.
In an excerpt from her forthcoming VH1 'Behind the Music' interview, the eight-time Grammy Award nominee revealed that the scrutiny surrounding her pending sex tape scandal had forced her into exile and ultimately toward suicide.
"I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out," Barrino admitted during the interview, which premieres Aug. 24 at 9 p.m. ET/PT. "At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive]."
See clip of Fantasia Barrino's 'Behind The Music' below.
"I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle," the 'Fantasia for Real' actress described of the night she overdosed. "I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."
Miraculously, the singer's near-fatal experience has given her enough strength and "motivation" to continue her career and promote her latest album, 'Back to Me,' which, coincidentally, is being released the same day as the premiere of her VH1 special.

Following her release from a North Carolina hospital on Aug. 12, Barrino released a statement through her record label, J Records, thanking fans for their prayers and support.
"I can't thank my fans enough for their prayers and support during such a challenging time," adding, "It has given me the motivation to get back to work. ...I put a lot of blood, sweat and tears into this album, and I pray that everyone enjoys it as much as I do."
Unfortunately, the cause of all of Barrino's recent self-loathing stems from being caught in the middle of a divorce between Antwaun and Paula Cook. On Aug. 4, the missus filed for divorce, detailing in court documents that the singer engaged in an affair with her husband and even "recorded" several of their sexual encounters.
While 'The Color Purple' musical star maintains her innocence, saying she believed Cook was separated from his wife, she admitted to being disheartened by the men who have been involved in her life.

"I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again --dealing with my family, my father, dealing with men and their [expletive]. I was tired," she disclosed to the VH1 special. "My head was hurting me. I was over it."
As for how much of a negative impact the whirlwind events may have on her future career, some media pundits feel that infidelity may have a major impact on her album sales.
"A significant portion of her consumer base is African American women, who don't take lightly the idea of someone breaking up another African American woman's marriage," said BlackVoices' columnist, Jawn Murray, who recently appeared on 'The Joy Behar Show' and 'Nancy Grace' to discuss the issue. "Fantasia has to convince the people she was the one misled by Antwaun Cook, because if they believe she purposely attempted to steal a married man, it could definitely be curtains for her career." The disappointing performance of Alicia Keys' last album is said to be due to her alleged role in ending producer Swizz Beatz marriage.
Terrie Williams, a public relations expert who has worked with Eddie Murphy, Janet Jackson, Russell Simmons and Mo'Nique, believes that Fantasia's visibility on the reality show has invited a heightened level of scrutiny within her personal life. Her suicide attempt is likely a clear signal that more serious issues than record sales plague the singer.
"Many in our community wear the mask of wellness while suffering from deep depression bought about life's ups and downs, whether losing a lover, a job, a home or in whatever we have placed value upon and invested in emotionally," said Williams, author of 'Black Pain: It Just Looks Like We're Not Hurting.'
"A suicide attempt is an obvious cry for help for a young woman under many pressures. The great thing is that there are smart, trained people that can help, and the people who love and care for her should make sure that happens. We must share ourselves...healing starts with us."



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By: dee on 8/23/2010 8:21PM
I don't know why she is so angry to kill herself, she is the one who cheated with someone elses husband. The adultress eats, wipes her mouth and says i have done nothing wrong," The bible says. I hope she gets the help she needs.
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By: mickey on 8/23/2010 8:23PM
I certainly wish the best for Fantasia.
A reality check for those in the world of dating...separated = still married. At the end of the day no matter how long a person may be separated, legally they are still married (PERIOD)!
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By: bellstar on 8/23/2010 8:27PM
whatever happen to fantasia, it is not her fault and believe that she was setup and misled by the cooks because they must have plans this whole things to get her money. They knew she was rich.
I wish fantasia barrino best of luck and always keep god in her heart and things will workout the best for her. No matter what people say about her and she must go on with her lift and her career.
Take care and god bless you fantasia.
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By: DeiaynciaCimone on 8/24/2010 9:43AM
I agree, watch. When the dust settles Mr.& Mrs. Cook will be back together rich off of Fantasia's money. As for Fantasia she will be all alone, without a penty or a pinto. What goes around cums around and will kick you in your ghetto dealing big ass. That goes for all women who do this not just Fantasia.
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By: Jackie on 8/23/2010 8:21PM
It's sounds like she finally heard herself sing and she was trying to kill the pain in her ears.
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By: Victor on 8/23/2010 8:22PM
Been there, good luck.
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By: lvalentine on 8/24/2010 8:26PM
Hey Victor, I (lvalentine) told my story on this board in hopes it may help someone know that they are not alone and that we all make poor judgements from time to time, do you mind telling what is your story?
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By: Pam J. Doughty on 8/23/2010 8:27PM
Fantasia, I will support you in whatever you do. You need to be reminded who you are, and whose you are. The enemy have been trying to destory you, but you know best that no weapon formed against you, shall not prosper. Don't forget your first Love (Jesus the Christ) and please do not compromise what He has given you. For we all sin and short of the glory of God. Keep looking to Hills frow, which cometh from the Lord. The Word states, when a man findeth a wife; he finds a good thing. God have that mate for you. STOP LOOKING!!!! I love you and I enjoy watching and listening to your music. STOP HOLDING BACK. BE FREE AS YOU WERE BEFORE.
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By: Jeff on 8/23/2010 8:34PM
Oh brother, have her come live with you. Give her a bible. That ought to weigh her down. Now look to the stars.......
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By: Teear Sturdivant on 8/23/2010 8:29PM
Hi I'm Tia from High Point NC..... Tasia no matter what your surroundings look like please please keep your head up. Lot's around H.P wanna see you fail. Grl when prayers go up blessings come down and i knw you knw that!!! I love your music and will keep you in my prayers! Tasia stay strong...... Let's give them something to talk about...LOVE YOU GRL
TEEAR S.
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