Decades of segregation and inequality in Ferguson, as well as most American metropolitan areas, have fostered a racial inequality exacerbated by the criminalization of not just poverty, but the criminalization of black and brown bodies. Too many whites are too willing to believe that a black body poses a threat.
It's hard to continue. I wish it was my kids' bedtime. I wish the dishes were done. I wish the house was clean. I wish America wasn't racist. I wish Mike Brown was in police custody. I wish Darren Wilson admitted guilt. I wish America admitted guilt.
My daughter and I were standing in the middle of the baseball field in Inwood Hill Park, looking up at the stars, when something told me to check to see if the decision was finally announced. "NO INDICTMENT" stared back at me, taunting. I fell to my knees, crying. Yet again I was that kid watching an injustice occur right before my eyes and feeling helpless to do anything about it.
The gradual ground we have gained regarding our civil rights should not be confused with the literal stalemate we have had with the U.S. justice system regarding our human rights for more than 200 years.
Having failed so miserably earlier this month to express our justified anger at the ballot box, this Thanksgiving weekend, along with its Black Friday promotions, throughout the holiday season, and for whatever necessary days or months to come, we have been given the opportunity to express our justified rage, anew.
I don't think the fate of Darren Wilson as a human being really means anything to the ruling class. At the end of the day, people like Bob McCulloch aren't protecting Wilson so much as the system that he stood for.
This is a sad day. All of America's fathers, mothers and children should stay outraged and in motion for progress until we are finally what we say we are: One Nation, Under God, Indivisible, with Liberty and Justice for All.
Last year, Mazy was aware and confident enough in herself, after coping with a lot of self-shame and bullying, to share with her family, second grade class and elementary school that she had always known she was a girl.
We are in a state of emergency, a time of challenge and controversy, but not because of the protestors. That state of emergency will continue until we stand, become uncomfortable, and demand a justice system that addresses the manifestation of pain in protest, the further chipping away of respect, and the real state of emergency our country faces.
This is consistent with the cultural logic that makes it okay in America to use brutal force when confronted by a Black villain. Thus, how can a grand jury indict Officer Darren Wilson when he was battling The Hulk?
We now all have the chance to examine the evidence -- released last night -- in the grand jury's decision not to indict white police officer Darren Wilson, who fired multiple bullets into Michael Brown. But the verdict on America's criminal justice system is already in for many Americans: guilty, for treating young black men differently than young white men.
I can't speak. My country has scarred me once again. How can I go to work in the morning on a train full of people who care not? At a workplace of people who missed the story because of football or reality television?
Perhaps the call to examine this one case would be understandable if justice came more often, but we've seen these unjust acts in communities of more color for far too long.
On March 22, 1991, a visibly shaken and angered President George H.W. Bush said he was "sickened and outraged" by what he saw on television. That was the beating of black motorist Rodney King by a swarm of LAPD cops.
The convenient spectacle of "violence in the streets" obscures the perpetuation of "structural violence" everywhere.
These things happen all the time, right? They will happen forever, right? It's nice to think they won't. It's probably best to think life won't always be like this. Optimism is good. But I know I'm going to have to tell my future children about this country. What should I tell them?
The tragedy of Michael Brown's death, unarmed and shot by a member of the Ferguson police, is now followed by the tragic failure of the local courts to force the policeman to stand trial. This cannot stand without a measure of accountability. And on that score look no further than the prosecutor's office.
Deep down, whether I want to admit or not, I know the truth. The racism that James Baldwin knew and ultimately made him leave the country isn't really gone. It's just changed its form.
To understand this moment, we have to understand that Ferguson is yet another unraveled thread in the closely woven fabric of racism that has cloaked this country for 500 years.
For the past two seasons, Kim Zolciak has entertained the masses as the sole white woman with the larger-than-life personality on Bravo's hit reality show 'The Real Housewives of Atlanta.'
Since dropping her dance anthem 'Tardy for the Party' and cutting ties with her mystery married boyfriend, known as Big Poppa, the Connecticut native is in hot demand, making headlines -- again -- as the new season of the show gets under way.
Zolciak fills BlackVoices.com in on what's new in her world.
BlackVoices: What's up with your relationship with Big Poppa?
Kim Zolciak: He'll always be in my life. I was with him for almost five years, and we split up a while ago. He's a great person. There are no hard feelings. I just needed to move on.
BV: Did it hurt your relationship when people uncovered that Big Poppa was Lee Najjar?
KZ: I've never confirmed who Big Poppa is, so they can make assumptions all they want. I was with Poppa for years before the show. I think he was legally married, but his wife didn't even live in Atlanta. I think the stress and pressure of everything took its toll.
BV: Were you really engaged or were you just talking about it and he just got you a nice ring?
KZ: It wasn't the first ring that I got. I had another ring that I wore for a couple of years. I left him last season and I told him, "If you can't get divorced, I'm gonna go," so that ring was a promise. [He said] "I want to spend the rest of my life with you please hang in there while I'm gong through the process." I don't do anything for cameras. My life is my life. It's edited, not scripted.
BV: Would you date a married man again?
KZ: It's amazing to me that Sheree [Whitfield] was legally married and she was allowed to date, and no one gave her any heat, so at the end of the day, if Poppa had a marriage and relationship with his wife and I was his mistress that's one thing. He was a part of my kids' life. He legally was [just] committed on paper to someone else."
BV: Would you ever date a black guy or have you dated a black man before?
KZ: No, I've never dated a black man, and I can't say I wouldn't. I said before that I wouldn't because I come from an Italian Catholic family, but I have never been in that position. I've never gone down that path, and I grew up in Connecticut and there were maybe two black people in my high school. I didn't grow up that way, but love has no gender and color.
BV: You've talked about your bisexual relationship with Tracy Young. Is that over?
KZ: It was never like that. I think that she is a great girl, and we have a great connection. She's still in my life to this day. I know Tracy and the controversy, but it was not that serious.
BV: Did you get any criticism from the gay community for having this relationship?
KZ: People's opinion of me doesn't matter, and love has no gender. I had never been with a girl before, but I can't say I won't be with a woman again. I don't ask people who they sleep with. Why's my sex life so controversial?
BV: How's your new relationship with Atlanta Falcons player Kroy Biermann?
KZ: He's fantastic. I think because he is 25 and in the NFL, people think he is in the club and popping bottles and acting crazy, but I haven't known him to go to the club yet in five months. He's fantastic with my girls. You will get to see it unfold this year.
BV: At first, 'Housewives' footage made fun of you being a singer Do you really want to be taken seriously?
KZ: 'The first season, they made it out to be that way, and it was so traumatic to me. Then Kandi [Burruss] came along and did 'Tardy for the Party.' My daughter wrote that song, and it was so successful, Of course, I loved it. I always said I wanted to be a one-hit wonder, but now I have 'Google Me' coming out, and I love doing 'Ellen' or performing in a nightclub. Who gets paid to sing at a nightclub and hang out with a bunch of people who love you?
BV: Do you think you could live anywhere besides Atlanta?
KZ: I want the hell out of Atlanta. I moved to Atlanta like 11 years ago, and my parents moved down here. I really wanted to move to Los Angeles, but Kroy put a damper on that. I have a lot of friends out there. Atlanta is fun, but the weather kills me.
BV: How do you feel about Lisa Wu Hartwell not being on the show? Were you happy to see her go?
KZ: I could care less. I was so tired of hearing about all those companies she supposedly owns. I wish her the best, but whatever.
BV: What are your feelings on the Dwight Eubanks and Nene Leakes' drama? How'd you get in the middle of that?
KZ: Nene is a firecracker. Everything that is said or done, she has to go over the top with it. Screaming and acting all crazy. Dwight likes drama, too. But if you're in Nene's life and she feels like you betrayed her, she just pops off at the mouth and doesn't communicate effectively. So, it's difficult when something does happen for her to resolve it. It's screaming and yelling and anger.
BV: Is there any reason to be her friend? The girl choked you.
KZ: I didn't sleep for days. I have never had someone put their hands on me. It scared the s**t out of me. I am incredibly claustrophobic, and she strangled me. I was turning colors, and I didn't sleep. I was a wreck over it. I had heartburn, I snapped at my kids and finally I said I did nothing wrong ,and I now know what she is capable of. I never thought she would ever do that to me. I need to wear a bulletproof vest 'cause next time she might shoot me or something.
BV: What's going on with the wig line?
KZ: I'm still doing it, and I have made a lot of wigs for people but they are so expensive. They are between $3,000 and $6,000, and I am trying to find a manufacturer with wigs that middle America can afford, but right now they are custom-made and take three days. But the wigs you see me wear are from my own line.
BV: Do you think that you would ever do your own reality television show?
KZ: I definitely think that might happen at some point. It just depends on where my relationship goes with Kroy and my life in general. I really want to go to Los Angeles. I have so many things going on that it probably wouldn't be a problem doing my own show.
BV: How is being a single mom, and what do you think about Octomom?
KZ: That Octomom needs to sit down. She is silly. She's in a class of her own. Who does that? Being a single mom is difficult, but I love the fact that I make decisions for my children. My ex-husband lives in Connecticut, and they don't have to go somewhere every other weekend so I like that part of it. But being a single mom is difficult. I can't make my ex-husband step up to the plate and take care of my children financially and emotionally.
BV: How do you feel about the Bishop Eddie Long scandal? Did you know about the story before it broke?
KZ: I don't really know too much about it to be honest with you. My assistant was blabbing about it and playing all this crap about, it but I'm not really familiar.
BV: It's a big Atlanta story, Kim. Are you serious?
KZ: I know it is, but I got my own stuff going on here. I got my kids and the wigs and the book and the boo and the music.
BV: Do you think your girls are growing up too fast?
KZ: I think it's definitely difficult. Brielle is 13 and she's in the eighth grade and teachers ask her, "Is your mom really dating Kroy or coming out with a song?" and those things upset me. I think they are growing up quicker than the norm because they have to. The Tracy stuff was very difficult, and Brielle can read the Internet and Google my name and see what's going on.
BV: Why do you think the Atlanta Housewives are so popular out of all of the franchises?
KZ: We're crazy as hell and at the end of the day I knew Nene and Sheree before because we filmed the pilot together, and Nene is hysterical and its always the three of us falling out, not speaking for six months and it's just crazy. But it's all for entertainment. Nene is super, superfunny, and Sheree is the diva. I think people can relate to us.
'The Real Housewives of Atlanta' airs on Bravo, Monday nights at 9 p.m. EST.